Just A Smile (Love Is Blind)

There are times in my life when I can’t see something even when it’s staring at me yelling “I’m here”. This happened to me recently and I was so oblivious to it I could have ruined something very special. Thankfully fate intervened, made me see sense, give in to my heart and now I’m less stressed and happier than I have been for a long time.

Almost 3 years ago I set something in motion that was to change my life when I needed it most. A simple act of saying thank you and complimenting a smile lead to conversation and more.

The conversation was fairly general at first and just a getting to know you chat. Eventually we started to get more personal in our chats and got to know more about each other. Through this chat we built up a friendship and gained a good personal insight about each other. There was minor flirting and hints of teasing, but I held back as I felt certain things would make any attempt at dating very hard. In hindsight I was being foolish and afraid to take a chance.

As time went on we grew closer, more open with our chats and confided in each other more. We continued to chat daily even when she was in a relationship. It was during these times when she would ask for advice and I would answer truthfully, adding the occasional comment about how I’d look after her when she was having a bad time.

At the start of 2021 we’d started changing our relationship. In February I started calling her baby girl and she called me daddy. A simple term with much affection that lead the way to trying a simple long distance Dom/sub dynamic, but more like Dd/lg. However, the attempts at creating doable tasks and punishments proved to be harder than either of us expected, so we soon dropped back to a more comfortable situation.

At the start of August I began planning my first holiday on my own. I wanted to experience a holiday without family tagging along. Without hesitation I looked up places to stay where we could meet in person for the first time, and after checking her work schedule I settled on somewhere nearby. The start of the holiday arrived, and I began the fun journey along the M25 and M1 to Nottingham to meet a long time Twitter friend. After coffee and walking about for a few hours I headed off to my hotel, which would be home for the next few nights.

After settling in to my hotel room for a few hours I received two calls. The first was from my son letting me know one of our cats was unwell and had been taken to the local PDSA. The second call was from my friend asking if I could meet her that night to help her out. She told me she’d fallen over in the rain earlier and suspected she’d broken her wrist. I didn’t hesitate to help out and drove to her after grabbing some food at the McDonald’s nearby.

The next hour was spent at the urgent care unit, only to discover that they couldn’t do an x-ray until the next morning. I spent the rest of the evening making sure she was comfortable whilst we watched tv together. Sometime around eleven I received another call about my cat, finding out just how ill she was and having to make the decision to have her put to sleep. Suddenly I went from supporting to needing support, which I received in the form of a big hug.

The next morning we headed back to the urgent care unit. As expected, all I could do was wait in the car while they did the assessment, the x-ray and finally putting the temporary cast on. This whole process took several hours, so once it was done we headed off for coffee and food as we were both hungry. That evening we settled down to watch films and relax with a takeaway. As much as I wanted to kiss her, I was more concerned about making sure she was comfortable. Although I would have liked to stay the night I left later and agreed to pick her up for her work shift the next day.

In the morning I picked her up and took her into work. I spent the next few hours walking around the town, footpaths and local parks. Eventually it was time for lunch, so I headed over to see how she was coping. As I entered the coffee shop I could instantly see the frustration and dismay. There she was, struggling to put cakes on display with only one usable hand. My heart skipped and I just wanted to be the other side of the counter helping. Grabbing a coffee and something to eat, I sat myself down and just watched what was going on around me. Her colleague came past clearing tables, and I commented on how frustrating it was seeing her struggle due to the insistence of a manager that she come into work. The colleague agreed and continued about their work. Eventually the frustrating shift was finally cut short by an understanding supervisor. We headed off to get some bits, then settled in for another evening of movies and comfort. This was the last evening she would need me as her parents were due back the next day. We sat watching the movies holding hands and trying to ensure she was comfortable.

The rest of my holiday went by and I headed home on the Friday. At some point after I returned home, the couple of days we had together were discussed because I had not made any advances on her. Maybe the chemistry wasn’t there and we were destined to just be supportive friends. I tried to reassure her that I had gone into caregiver mode and liked her a lot. In reality I liked her a lot more than I could admit and was still using some poor excuses as to why we shouldn’t try a relationship.

Over the next few months we continued our daily chats. Our friendship was still important but I felt I’d missed my chance by my inaction when we met. Both of us started to date other people and even asked each other for advice. At the start of 2022 everything changed over the course of a few days, and this change along with subsequent events would lead to where we are today.

The first weekend of January, and the following Monday hit me with an unexpected emotional overflow. The catalyst to this was my boss announcing her retirement to me at 4 o’clock on the Friday. This was rapidly followed by an invite for drinks from the lady I’d been chatting with via a dating app and had met only twice before since the start of November. The final event occurred on the Monday afternoon when my friend came to see me on the way to her latest date. She’d broken my excuse about distance as he was only around 30 miles away from me. When she arrived I took some time away from my home office to sit with her. After a bit of chatting we kissed, rather passionately for “just friends”, and this led to a bit of fooling around with each other before she had to leave. In that short period of time something had changed for the better, but still fighting it with excuses, I would not act on it for 5 weeks.

Over the next month we both continued to ask each other for dating advice. I freely admit to being a complete mess, coping with the expectations of work and stressing out about dating. The only calm in my life was my friend. She helped me choose a birthday card, presents and  a valentines card for my date, even finding time to send me one herself. I should have realised just how special she was to do all this for me.

Around valentines my date decided she wasn’t ready for a full relationship, and just wanted something casual. So there I was back to looking through the apps for a date. 5 days later everything changed for the better. My friend was having a bad day at work and asked if she could see me after. I immediately said my door was always open. However, this was not the usual popping round for a chat as she was working over 2 hours away. 

Eventually she made it to mine after an arduous journey, which took twice as long due to traffic. I welcomed her in with open arms, a hug and a kiss. She sat down on the sofa and I left her chatting with my son whilst I made drinks and sorted out dinner. The evening progressed, we ate, chatted and cuddled up watching various bits on tv. Later we headed to bed, and as we lay there cuddling together I finally realised that all my excuses for not having a proper relationship had gone. Distance, family and age gap were no longer an issue, she was here with me and everything had changed. I couldn’t let things go back to the way they were. I had to take a chance and see where this relationship would go, realising that I had fallen in love.

As I write this we are heading to 4 months living together. It’s taken me over a month to write because I’ve been busy and struggled to put it all to words. We’ve gone from daily good morning and good night messages, to saying it to face to face, along with a kiss and a smile. All my friends who’ve met her see the change in me and just how good we are together. It’s not always been easy, but we rise up to each challenge and work through the issues together. We encourage and support each other as best we can.

February Photofest Day 18 - No Filter Friday

One of the unfiltered pics I took back in the summer. The final one of these pics was used for the colour splash theme.

February Photofest 2022 - Day 17 Thigh Knee Happy People

Yes it's a pun on words but it's most apt at the moment. I'm in good spirits at the moment so I'm keeping the smiles going as best I can.

February Photofest 2022 - Day 16 Another Hump Day

It's middle of the week and I've made it this far without getting the hump, so here's mine instead.

Light In The Dark

Sometimes you cannot see the light because you're more concerned about the dark. I have recently learnt that you have to look for the light as it's the thing that guides you, sometimes the light has to be pointed out to you.

 

Be My Valen(tie)n

After the events of the past few days I was wondering if I would feel up to putting together a Valentines pic for February Photofest. I couldn't think of a pic to take as my thoughts were elsewhere and probably still are. However I know that to be true to myself and my new found confidence I had to try. This image is actually inspired by something I've recently started looking into and would love to explore more. I will happily be the rigger or the subject being roped but to fully appreciate it there would have to be a connection as it could only be done when both of us are trusting enough.

 

Everything Is Just Peachy

Life is what you make it and you just have to go with whatever it throws at you. It's safe to say that mine is a roller coaster ride of emotions so far and this weekend has been no exception. I just have to keep on smiling and take everything positive and grow myself on that. I refuse to go back to the way I've been even with setbacks.

Love Is Complicated

Can't you just take me and love me the way that I am?

Some things don't matter

It's all just part of a plan

Don't turn away from what's real

Don't turn away from the love you feel

We keep falling, in and out of love

Femme Fatale - Falling In and Out of Love - 1988

At the start of this year everything changed for the better. I discovered that the very first line of the lyrics above can be true and it's this discovery that fills me with hope.

It's been a bumpy start to my return to love, sex and romance and I'm sure it will continue to be but that's what life is about. From two first kisses within a few days of each other I found my confidence increasing. The first was from a budding relationship that started late October and only our third date. It sealed a friendship which I will maintain but it also set in action a lot of soul searching from both sides which has made us choose a casual non-committed relationship until such time as we find ourselves dating other people. The only real change is that I will be looking again where I hadn't been as we hadn't got past the friend stage, but now there's no pressure on either party and no guilty feelings for chatting to other people.

The reasoning behind this choice is simple, despite liking each other a lot, things being really good when were together and easily falling into a committed relationship we both need slightly different things. She has only ever been in one relationship and a couple of brief encounters before spending time with me. By her own admission she wants to be selfish and experience a bit more before settling for one person again, and I completely understand this. She doesn't want to hurt me or for me to wait around while she tries dating and freely admits that she could be making a mistake by letting me go. In return I have promised to use the confidence I've gained to continue dating to try and find someone who wants the kind of relationship I'm looking for. The majority of this was discussed before we went out for the evening, where we walked around holding hands, cuddled and kissed.

The second kiss was from a friend I'd been chatting with for a few years. It was long overdue and triggered feelings we'd put off for far too long. Unfortunately like everything else the timing that fate had provided was out and had other ideas.

So yes I've found 2 people I could love with all my heart if fate hadn't intervened and had other ideas. Yes they'll feature in my life as long they want as friendships are always the starting point. Going forward I know that I can be loved for who I am without having to change to fit into an ideal. Where to start to find that person is harder but I will not give up but I will be patient.

February Photofest 2022 - Day 12 Messy Aftermath

 I had planned to take a new pic today along with some for the next two weeks. However as always things didn't quite go the way I'd planned. My life has been a roller coaster ride so far this year and this weekend has proven to be a continuation of that and distracting me. I have a challenging time ahead of me and I will embrace that challenge with the new confidence I have. I want my life to be simple but I know that's not possible, but I do not want it to become as messy as me in my offering for February Photofest.

February Photofest 2022 - Day 11 No Fear or Filter Friday

So Friday comes around again and it's time for another pic without filters. This was taken back in July when I was working on trying a variety of different perspectives. Initially I chose one of the other versions of this shot in black and white.

Since the pic was taken I've learnt to appreciate all my pics as people see them differently to me. My initial idea still hasn't been used because I need an additional pair of hands to help me but maybe one day I'll be lucky enough to see my vision come true.

February Photofest 2022 - Day 10 The Thighs The Limit

 So far this year has been a roller coaster ride for me  and I’m still trying to get the balance right. This past week I’ve learnt to keep myself in check and not put undue pressure on myself or my relationship, but also I can ask when I can see her next without feeling guilty for asking now the busy chaotic period is over. Still not at the boyfriend/lover stage yet but I’m working on it. There’s  something about this lady that is keeping me hooked, other than the fact she has not run away screaming from my openness. 

I also realised that I’ve become more confident when in a conversation with my future boss I actually said how much of a pay increase I expected in my new role. Turns out that I was not far off what they were trying to negotiate.

Next week starts the return of a yearly emotional roller coaster ride that started in 1999. This year I have new and old friends in my life to help me through and a whole new outlook on life.

February Photofest 2022 - Day 9 Cheeky

Midweek is normally a struggle. For a start it’s bin day which means ensuring the rubbish is put out early, I could put it out the night before but the foxes make a real mess given a chance. The chaos of the start of the week is tempered by the impending rush of requests and queries the latter half of the week brings.

However today is different. I changed my routine and did the washing up before I went to bed. After putting the bins out I prepared the slow cooker meal which is based on a sausage casserole but using pork loin chops instead. This subtle change made me feel good. It allowed me the time I needed to get in a quick pic instead of using an older previously unused one.

February Photofest 2022 - Day 8

So back in the summer I took some shots for a post titled Vulnerable - Still. It was a revisit of a post I originally did back in 2019. I'm happy with the pic I used at the time but I felt that February Photofest is an ideal opportunity to show the one I discarded as I was experimenting at the time with remote control of the camera via a phone app. The result although not perfect successfully conveys how I felt at the time despite my face looking at the phone.

Photography and my on/off love of it

I have an on/off love affair with my photography. Over the years I've worked hard to improve my skills from my humble offerings with a standard point and click camera to my present day DSLR. Sometimes I've wanted to take pictures and other times not. I have grand ideas but struggle to get some of them done due to circumstance, normally me being single and having nobody to participate in the idea for me means I tend to put them to one side and never revisit them. My favourite things to photograph over the years have been wildlife (predominantly dragonflies and damselflies) or people (general portrait type pics through to more risqué adult pics). The subject I find hardest to photograph is myself which will seem strange to anyone reading my blog.

I share them where I feel most appropriate. The wildlife and general normal pics end up on Facebook, Twitter, Flickr or Fetlife and Purpleport (when I remember) and occasionally my blog. The more adult pics have invariably ended up on Twitter, Flickr and here on the blog. On here I can experiment and express myself in ways that are outside the mainstream and not be judged for it.

Some of the key things I've learnt over the years are the following:

1) Never be afraid to ask for advice or an opinion. Both of these make you a better photographer.

2) Never delete pics unless you really feel they cannot be edit in anyway to improve them. Initial thoughts on a rejected pic change over time and what you thought was a poor pic could be something special with the right adjustments and filters applied.

3) If you do courses to improve your skills either do a one day course or one with no time restraint. The one day courses are good for introductory skills and basics. I'm currently taking an online course which I started back in 2015 but haven't ventured onto much in the past 3 years despite having had plenty of opportunity.

Over the years when I've photographed models there has always been consent forms completed by all parties involved. As the majority of my photos now are of me I tend to not worry so much. I'm old enough to know my stuff will inevitably end up elsewhere and quite frankly if they are that desperate for a male over 50 then I'm actually quite flattered.

There are a few pics dotted around my blog that I'm really proud of because of the general reaction to them, especially when I wasn't sure they were good pics. There is a couple of pics from model photoshoots on separate page which I'm proud of and hunting around for a pic to tie in with both Five Things and February Photofest I had to go back to my first studio photoshoot. It was hard to pick as I realise now I wasn't that bad at the time. This one stands out the most though as it's a simple crop and I'd happily have it placed on a canvas to adorn a wall in my house.

MMM Come Get Messy With Me

When the prompt for this Sinful Sunday appeared I chuckled to myself as I could just post any pic of me and I'd be ok as my real first name begins with M. As I'd already done a motion blur pic for a previous prompt I could have tried that combined with masturbation, I considered doing a milking pic but had no one to help with that. Eventually I made my choice and after a bit of shopping I sat in a cold empty bath tub (old enamelled iron baths do not warm up easily) and proceeded to get messy 😁

February Photofest 2022 Day 5 - Saturday Morning Tea

Saturday mornings are a time to reflect on the week just gone and the weekend ahead. Sometimes my thoughts run wild and I need to tame them, this morning is one of those days. Possibly overthinking things as I’m prone to do at the moment while I continue to try to find balance.

February Photofest 2022 - Day 4 No Filter Friday

It's my first February Photofest and the first Friday. As Friday seems to be a no filter day I felt an unedited, unfiltered and unseen photo was appropriate. This was one of the pics I took for Kink of the Week prompt Gags, my final pic had a lot of editing but I feel that this one does not need any as my fear of using a gag for the first time is quite evident.

February Photofest 2022 - Day 3 Thighs Day

 I love a nice relaxing bath as much as I love a shower. It helps soothe the aches and allows me to just relax. Unfortunately my bath at present isn’t as nice as I’d like due to being an old iron bath with chips and scratches in the ceramic coating. To be fair my bathroom needs updating and I plan to get this done soon.

February Photofest 2022 Day 2 - Hump Day

It’s hump day and I’m in good spirits. Yes I’m struggling to get my world into a balance I’m happy with, not easy when you want to spend time with someone who has things already booked. I won’t let that deter me or assuring the person I’m ok with it, hey it’s only 4 weeks on Friday that my double roller coaster journey started and I would never expect someone to drop all their plans for me or even add me into them at such an early stage.

February Photofest 2022 Day 1 - Fiery by nature

I have a fire in my heart and soul because I’m a naturally fiery person.

January where are you leading me?

The last Sunday in January and I was struggling to think of a pic for Sinful Sunday, then the prompt appeared for Five Things - January The Longest Month and I finally had a hook.

January is normally a slow month with year end bits at work, updating bits for the upcoming year and a birthday near the end of the month. Generally an easy month pulling out of the post holiday slump. This year fate had other ideas and decided I should be on a roller coaster ride from the onset.

An easy start for the first couple of days and then the roller coaster ride began on the Friday. Late in the afternoon I received an unexpected teams call from my manager. She was letting me know that she had handed in her retirement notice, this was not totally unexpected as the past couple of years have been difficult and the frequency of her frustrations had been increasing. During the ensuing discussion I received a message on Bumble inviting me out for a drink from a lady I'd been chatting with since November. Despite only having been on 2 dates I knew I liked her and wanted to see how things progressed, so I confirmed back that I'd love to and we arranged the date.

After the weekend I was on 2 roller coaster rides. The first is a ride using my experience already gained in my job to continue what I love and take over as much as I can handle from my manager. She's prepared me for this over the almost 10 years I've worked with her in our 2 person team. It's daunting and I have my doubts at times but I know I can only do my best.

The second roller coaster is the one that scares me the most. Since the Friday I have been on several dates with the lady and we are still keeping things casual while we decide where we want to take things. I'm happy with this arrangement for the moment but I'm struggling with my emotions. Due to prior arranged family and friend events I've hardly seen her during the past 2 weekends other than a brief evening  on the Friday a week ago. I want to see her more but I don't want to pressure her into anything. I'm scared I'll either come over as too pushy and over eager, only interested in one thing or not interested enough. I know that I'm doing everything right but it's a struggle when I know I like her a lot more than I can actually tell her at the moment.

So yes January has been an incredibly long and very testing month. I don't want to get off the ride but I would like to know where it's leading me.

Celebrations - Past, Present and Future

When I saw the prompt I wasn't sure I'd be able to put something down in writing as I wasn't sure what to write. The past few years I've struggled to celebrate special occasions, mainly due to lockdowns, isolations and the general mood of the past 2 years. Over the years I've had some memorable celebrations so I thought I'd list them or at least what I remember.

18th Birthday 1988

So as birthday parties go this is definitely up there as a memorable one. I thought the planning was meticulous for my 18th birthday, arrangement had been made through friends to have the party at one of their houses. Little did I know that I was being deceived and the real party was being planned under my nose by my friends and my parents. I was delivered to a friends house on the day of the party unaware that I would then be driven back to my own house later in the day for the real party. The party itself was a standard teenage hormone fuelled affair with drinking and loud music. Memorable because the shy bumbling me lost my virginity.

21st Birthday 1991

Drunken games of pool, pizza and a possibility I ran along Southend Seafront wearing nothing but a sock. Memorable because I don't actually remember it clearly.

Wedding Day June 1996

The celebration actually began the day before when I spent part of the evening with some work colleagues in The Blind Beggar pub in Whitechapel. Little did I know the significance until the next evening.

The wedding day began with a shaky start as nervousness kicked in I failed to keep food down. The ceremony itself went without a hitch and the wedding lunch went ok, even if I didn't eat much of it. Come the evening and the reception went off without a hitch and I managed to eat something before our first dance so I didn't feint. Leaving the reception we were driven to our hotel and began our married life together. Memorable because I spent the rest of that night pulling bobby pins and gypsophila from my wifes hair whilst watching The Krays on TV (this is the link to the evening before as it was a pub they frequented). Memorable because my first time on a plane was flying to my honeymoon in Jersey the next day.

February 1999

The short lived celebration of the birth of my second child. A birth is a celebration of life but when a child is born with multiple congenital abnormalities it becomes a fraught time for the parents. Looking back I realise that the odds were greatly against us from the start and we were living on hope. This may sound heartless but I know that had he survived it would not have been an easy life or any life at all with the abnormalities. I still celebrate the birthday each year but with tears instead of joy.

30th Birthday 2000

Last big gathering of friends/family before people moved away, split, splintered etc. Memorable because it was old friends, new friends and family all together.

40th Birthdays 2010

Not many people can say they had an orgy for their birthday but that's what happened to me. We were at the swingers club we went to regularly and I was made to sit in a chair in the middle of the bar area and received several lap dances from a couple of the ladies. We then joined 5 other couples in one of the rooms for a very memorable evening of carnal pleasure.

Since then the celebrations have been low key due to various reasons. The most recent major celebration was my daughters 18th birthday in January 2020 where I spent most of the day cooking food for the buffet. A busy day followed by a fun evening. Sadly the only other major birthday that year, my 50th was a quiet subdued affair due to being in lockdown and also being on furlough. To date I've still yet to celebrate it properly and not entirely sure if I will.

I'm not sure what future celebrations will be as my life is very much in flux at the moment. I would like to be able to celebrate the birthday of my new lady friend but as I write this it's only been 3 weeks since we changed the direction of our relationship. This will be the first weekend I've not seen her for at least a few hours due to family functions, but I'm hoping to see her on her birthday to deliver her card. Her present will be delivered to her directly during the day.

How I Knew I Was And Have Always Been Kinky

So I've alluded to kink in my bio but when the question appeared for Five Things I reviewed what I'd written. I've condensed those and added bits I'd missed. I think I've always been kinky due to my inquisitive nature and thirst for knowledge when I find a subject interesting. Some of the kinks were purely coincidental of the situation others were knowingly tried but nevertheless they are all valid as I'm still growing and finding other kinks to explore to this very day. There are other kinks but this is a taster and affirmation that I have always been and will continue to be KINKY 😁

Exhibitionism

At the end of June 1998, at a party somewhere near Lakeside I had my first sexual encounter and unknowingly a foray into exhibitionism (my first kink 😊). I'd been chatting with the girl who's party it was and getting along fine when someone came up and whispered in her ear. The next thing I know she's pointed out that her friend in the skimpy shorts fancied me, as the skimpy shorts walked out into the garden. She pushed me towards the door and whispered "go for it". Anxiously I headed to the garden as that never happened to me before. Well the anxiety soon disappeared when she grabbed my arm and took me to a dark corner. The rest is a blur but I was informed that our friends came looking for us an hour later when we'd not been seen inside for a while 😀 Fast forward 4 weeks and I'm laying in the middle of a field near Lakeside just a short distance from the M25 with the girl who's party it was fingering her as someone walks their dog on the outskirts.

March 1994 I'm with my wife to be at a friends flat, watching a film with my hand inside her top, teasing her nipples and bringing near to an orgasm (exhibitionist mode activated).

90s was the  of the progression of the exhibitionist streak, from the humble beginnings in the field in the 80's to being in our garden late at night with my wife in long coat and thigh high boots. The thrill of getting caught and being seen will always be a draw. Christmas 95 also saw us experiment with adult photography in the form of nudes, toys and sex.

Swinging/Group Sex/Threesomes

January 2007 another journey of discovery began. It had only been a few weeks from signing up on the website to our first meet. A true baptism of fire when we responded to an ad for last minute meet up as they'd been let down. Well in truth a couple had dropped out. A quick chat between the girls on the phone and we frantically showered and headed off all smartly dressed to enjoy our first MMMMMFF. Yes we jumped in at the deep end and other than nerves from me we had a great time. Two days later we had arranged to go for a meal and then to a swingers club with a couple we'd been chatting with for nearly 2 weeks. This encounter almost put a stop to everything due to miscommunication, lack of chemistry between the other partners and ending up in separate rooms. Thankfully we got through this minor setback and embarked on some memorable times and gained some good friends along the way.

In April we met a couple local to us (walking distance of where we lived) through the website and embarked on a mutual friendship that introduced us to several things, none of which I have any regrets about other than the fact we lost contact with them. Firstly I learned my tongue and fingers will be described as magical for the first time, and continue for many years to come. The female was pregnant and I managed to make her orgasm uncontrollably, and yes I would do it again to any woman who asked. To this day I still have a thing for pregnant women as there is just something special and magical about the power they hold.

Over the next few years we had a lot of fun and experienced many things from MMF to separate room swapping to voyeurism to orgies to BBC. We encountered many people with whom we became friends. We drove to various points of the country to see the people we made friends with via the website and its chatrooms. Midlands, Lincolnshire, Wiltshire and Surrey all have special memories but two stand out, a late night trip to London with another couple to visit a guy they knew who extremely well endowed at 12 inches. I've not seen one so big since. The second was a threesome with another guy in Wiltshire which was broadcast live into the chatroom via webcam.

Gangbangs

At the start of 2011 after several weeks of planning we attended our first gangbang. The drive to the location of the event was a little nerve wracking and only made worse by traffic.
Eventually we arrived and were greeted at the door by the other lady participant and organiser of the event and her partner. The girls department to another room to get changed whilst I chatted with the partner to check there were no hiccups and all was ready as planned. Entering the main area I noticed about a dozen or so males casually sat around in chairs and large cushioned platform for the girls. After about 5 mins the girls entered and proceeded to put a bit of a show for the guys before inviting them to join in, which they eagerly did. Overall the night was a good success and also paid quite nicely.

A few weeks later we received a message asking to meet us both to discuss a proposition. The actual proposition was actually to work one night every couple of weeks at a club which held regular gangbangs. Well it was a simple opportunity and would usually 4 girls so the ratio would always be 3-4 to 1 which is fairly standard. Needless to say we took the chance and enjoyed making new friends and a bit of money as well.

BDSM

Some point in the early 2010s I developed an interest in BDSM. It started initially as restraints and light spanking and then a collar & leash and a crop were added to the repertoire. Since then I have added wax play, nipple & clit clamps/suckers and a ball gag/restraint to the list. I'm not a natural sadist but when the mood takes I can be cruel but attentive.

Rope

This is very new to me but has been an intrigue for many years now. Back in the summer of 2021 I bought my first length of rope and then didn't use it due to various circumstances. At the start of 2022 I purchased my first rope book and as of writing this I have attempted my first bit of rope work. It's not pretty but it's a start and I was quite pleased I managed it as it's all one handed.

Not A Selfie

I hate taking selfies as I struggle to smile for them. However I had an idea whilst doing yoga and taking inspiration from one of Molly's pictures I decided I should try a self portrait. Following yoga today I decided to take the following, no thrills, no toys, just me and the camera.