I awoke suddenly in the middle of the night and became acutely aware that something was missing. There was an empty space beside me in the bed, but having been single for 5 years this is no surprise. It was however most unsettling as the thing that woke me was flashbacks to better, kinky times.
Being single what I miss the most is the intimacy of being cuddled up to someone at night, the connection of being with them and the contentment of being myself with someone special.
Will I ever find someone to explore each others fantasies and desires with, find that balance between day-to-day life and nighttime fun?
After 21 years of being with someone and a further 5 being separated/single I can honestly say that dating scares the hell out of me. I struggled with it in my late teens and early twenties and I'm not sure I'm fairing any better now. All my insecurities about height, build and what I'm after just overshadow it. What chance do I have being nowhere near the unrealistic image that women on dating sites seem to want? What chance do I have of finding someone who will accept me for who I am, kinks and all?
