If only they could see me now

Throughout my teens I struggled with bullying because of my size (short and slight build). Nowadays I’m still conscious of my size and more so now I’m dipping my feet into the dating pool (not confident but it’s a start).

However I find myself in an unusual frame of mind when it comes to showing my body to others, an exhibitionist part of me kicks in and majority of fear subsides. Is this due to the bullying? Who knows but it’s now a part of me that’s fairly confident, just a shame this confidence doesn’t transfer to dating.